Things inside my head

Murni told me a statement almost the same as this today. It didn't strike me dead hard, till afterawhile, the pins and needles of that awkward feeling I hate to feel. The feeling of disappointment+frustration+yucky feelings that is equivalent on getting your period. I didn't had to read it at all actually, she was right but the feeling that poked me and left my skin feeling a deep brush of the cold rainy weather. And then my head continued to ached again, and then later my heart, than my stomache, than my heart.FUCK.

Dark blue dark blue have you ever been alone in a crowded room?

The moon started shining on the sky at about 8pm last night. Then only at about 1.30 am it shone brighter than before with a halo resting on its body. As I lay on my bed enjoying the delightful view, it's then I saw your face on the moon. Because I remembered 2 occasions on a night like this.

1, the bad one when we had a big argument
2, the good one when we sat across the stars and wanted nothing more than that moment to never end.

-E

love don't come easy

Ans: The reason why love has it's downs as
well as the ups.

"love don't come easy.It's a game of give
and
take"

-The Supremes (You can't hurry love)

i will crush you

Someone was telling me this while i was half-listening to our conversation, and I remembered nodding my head furiously like a bobble-head. We were in the rain trying to make sense out of life and the people who treat our hearts like an entrance/exit shopping mall. Then I realized, there were 2 confused and shagged people walking under the rain.
I'm angry that not only did i let people hurt me this way, but I'm angry because I'm getting fustrated at letting people do this to me.

i cannot fanthom

and she said "Shhhh don't tell anyone"

oh yea

"cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street"

The Script-The man who can't be moved

all i do

All I do the whole night through
Is dream of you
And with the dawn
I still go on dreamin' of you
You're every thought
You're everything
You're every song I ever sing
Summer, winter, autumn and spring.
-Gene Kelley "Singing in The Rain"

guess this is why i am always so distracted now a these days.

For M and probably me Part II

"Yes I remember. " she said

"But I think that's how you or I, or was it both of us, that wanted it that way, I think it's you. Oh you make me so confused with your uncertainty" she said, again.


-E